Welcome To My Life

February 26, 2011 I find myself extremely irritable tonight and I do not know why. Perhaps it is because I have been feeling sick and therefore am very tired. Perhaps it is because there are messes everywhere and I never seem to get them cleaned up. Perhaps I am feeling behind in getting work done. Perhaps I am finally feeling the pressures of being poor (after 3 months.) Whatever it is, just being irritable is making me more irritable. grrrrr…..arrrrrrgh! Overall, it was an ok day. I don’t really have much to say at the moment actually. Only the fact that I am feeling irritable. I don’t know why and that is making me more irritable. Perhaps to morrow will find me better off.

Well, another day has passed…and a fairly good one at that. 6 more days and counting. I have to make it 6 more days until I should be able to just keep moving forward (without accruing any more debt…lol.) 6 more days and I can breathe a sigh of relief. Aw, hell….I’ll breathe one now. From there it truly can only go onwards and upwards. I still have some things to take care of, but not all at once and the money that will be coming in should surpass that which is needing to go out. Also, when I have more available funds I can work more. I know that sounds odd, but, in my life, that’s just the way it goes. March should be pretty straightforward with me getting caught up financially and bulking up the work load the best that I can. April offers some variety. There is a vendor show on April 9 in which I plan to take part. April 8 my Celestine Prophecy Study Group should finally begin. It will run every 2nd and fourth Friday of the month for 13 sessions (6 months??) This will be our 3rd a...

So, I just found a reason to keep the laptop upstairs with me at night – dream journaling. I just awoke from one of my “crazy” sessions. I needed to write it down and had nothing to write on. Then I thought, “wouldn’t this be great to share on the blog?” (Until one of you turns out to be a dream interpreter and you tell me how crazy I am.) Also, (and this will make more sense when the videos start posting) it’s about that time of the night when the itch kicks. I realized I’d be up for the next 20 minutes scratching. So, I figured what better than to head downstairs and get it down on the laptop (wishing I could have done it right from my bed.) I grabbed some cold pizza and a beer (okay, it’s a Pepsi. But, it would be a beer if I had any…and beer just sounds better) and here I am. I have been commenting lately that my dream sessions have been very vivid and intense. I have also had difficulty recalling them in the morning. You will now get an example of what I mean. They say that when...

“What a day this has been. What a rare mood I’m in. Why it’s almost like being in….” Oh nevermind. It has been a good day though. I got my one job for the day done, caught up on paperwork (including taxes), got some cleaning and straightening up done and just generally took care of business. Did I mention anywhere that the other day, in one 20 minute drive, I saw at least 8 hawks. That is the second time that has happened when I have been out doing work. I sense good things. But then, I always sense good things. LOL. I’m just not sure they come. (of course they do.) Sigh. I think that’s all for now. It’s very cold in here tonight. Brain is frozen I think. I need to find a way to date these posts. I see it puts a time stamp on but I don’t see a date stamp. Hmmmm.

I wish I could find the right word to describe how I feel this morning. It’s almost as if I partied too much yesterday, and yet, I didn’t party at all. I slept heavy, very heavy. I know I dreamed but I do not know of what. When I awoke I spoke a name. What that name was does not matter at the moment but I did find it interesting. My head is so foggy. I just can’t seem to get grounded this morning. I’m holding out for the mail again, then I have to drive to Temple to do a quick job. Days like this can be frustrating. I will spend more time driving than I actually spend working. Yet another reason I am ready for things to move forward and for the cash flow to be a bit better. If I had extra money for gas or other expenses I would have picked up some extra work down that way today. But, everything is as it is for a reason. Well, that’s all for now.

As much as things change, they remain the same… Or, is that…as much as things stay the same, they always change? I never could keep that straight. Hey Gang! Welcome to my life, where anything is possible and nothing is as it seems. I am the Rev Matt…and I’ll be your host. It is Tuesday, February 22, 2011 and it has been an interesting day. I woke up much earlier than I thought I would, without the alarm anyway.  Then I just kind of chilled this morning, waiting for the mail and procrastinating work. Eventually, I gave in and headed out.  The day wasn’t as bad as it seemed on paper. (It never is.) Overall, I enjoyed the day. having the opportunity to go out and work after three months of nothingness is a true blessing. However, I find myself anxious for the payoff – the day the checks really start coming in and I can start living again. Ahhh, but one day at a time. Enjoy it as it comes I suppose. At least I have been able to meet my current obligations – such as the half of ...

  Welcome to My Life is a project, an experiment in Life and ART. (A living story board, if you will.) Many years ago I discovered something that I found to be absolutely amazing. The Universe WORKS! It doesn’t matter who you are or what you believe, there is a natural flow to existence and it is constantly working…for you. The more I investigated this seemingly living force behind the process of life, the more I discovered just how wonderful, how fascinating and inspiring our lives truly are. I began to believe that life, as it naturally happens, could quite possibly make an interesting “reality show.” And by this I mean actual reality, not producer contrived drama and situations. I was inspired by the people (or characters) in my life. I was intrigued by the adventures that I was led on as I allowed myself to just follow the flow of this natural force. I was challenged by a friend to try it – to put it on film and see if it would take off. So, I did. Here I am 10 years later stil...