Faargenblaatz??

Hey Gang!

Welcome to my life…

Where anything is possible and nothing is as it seems. I’m Freedom and I’ll be your host, coming at you from within…

The Depths of Geistopiaaaaaaaaaa

Velcum to my Life ees a prochect, un experiment een Life unt ART, A liwing storyboard, if you vill. Eet’s premise ees zat you can, and do, experience za life you choose. Eet ees based on za Veel of Life unt za ARTs for za New Millennium as life building tools. Ya. Eet’s true.

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It is Monday, May 26, 2014. Time….Disturbed

Blow Off Steam, Before You Blow Your Top

Change

Trust In The Universe

Feedback

Feedback has always been my favorite part of WTML, and also, the one I get to play with the least. I have long said that this is actually the most vital part of the project and have strongly encouraged folks to leave comments, questions and the like.

Holy Faargenblaatz!!!

I don’t even know what to say. It has been an intense week (or so.) Just how long has it been since I last wrote?

I ended up out on the road for 2 different jobs this past week. I have another one coming up this week for a couple of days and out all week next week. And, currently, it looks like there may be work the following two weeks.

Financially, this all sounds very good, but I am not feeling satisfied nor content.

Sigh.

Like I said, I don’t even know what to say. I have awoken every day, for the past 4 or 5 days, feeling miserable, irritable. I jump out of bed and the stress and negativity is the first thing to settle in. Then I look at the 3 weeks prior, when I was in my “spiritual world.” I felt complete. I felt strong and confident and powerful. I had no fear, nor any doubt.

I didn’t feel good about going on this last trip. Though, I can’t say I felt bad about it either. I didn’t know what the feeling was. I can’t say I have any better idea now. Since January there has been an overwhelming sense of change on the horizon. It became stronger a few weeks ago. This past week, the messages of change were abundant and clear.

Here is a list of totems from just my work trip. We won’t even get into the ones from the festival.

Raven – Things are shapeshifting around you. There is an awakening of Magick. Give it new expression and life will change for the better.

Cricket – Power of your beliefs is strong – for good or bad. Do not distort ideas. Trust your own intuition before believing others.  

Scorpion – Now is the time for transformation. Passions increase. Changes can be calm or chaotic – depending on your self-control.

Bat – It is time for change and for a new beginning. An initiation is at hand. Trust your instincts and look for hidden implications around you. 

Chipmunk – Balance work and play to enjoy treasures of the earth. Keep creations protected and out of sight. Trust what you hear in others’ voices.

Heron – Assert yourself when opportunity appears. Change is coming anyway so act with self-reliance. Take advantage of change. (If it was the Great Blue Heron, it was too far to tell, then it is also – Assert your authority and strike while you can. Trust in your Jack-of-all-trades abilities but be careful of dabbling.) **I find this one particularly interesting because I was in the middle of the desert.**

Change is obviously inevitable. It is coming one way or the other. Apparently there is nothing I can do about it. I just, sometimes, wish that I had a better idea of what exactly is going on.

Over the past week I had very similar conversations with three different people. The dialogue revolved around the very frightening state of affairs in our country today. Some of it was about the focus on big business and the lack of attention to the people. Some of it was in regards to the “new” power of the government. And, some even delved into conspiracy theory.

I’ve never been much of a conspiracy theorist myself, and I am certainly no kind of anti-patriot. I don’t put much stock into the notions of the New World Order. I figure if these things are in place there is very little we are going to do to stop it anyway.

However, we are in dire straits as a nation. We are in dire straits as a world. Unfortunately, too many of us choose to be too arrogant, or too ignorant, to acknowledge it. The way we treat each other, talk about each other, hate at each other. The places where we put our focus and attention are bone-chillingly disturbing.

At times during these conversations I wondered why it comes to me. Why is it made a focus in my life? Personally, I could care less. I don’t care if we destroy each other or even the planet. Quite frankly, it would serve us right. Yet, it seems some force in the Universe is trying to bring my attention to it. In fact, at one point in the first conversation I had to fight off being “slain”. I felt the Spirit coming. I sensed it long before it arrived and as it encroached I had to send it away.

It’s not that I mind so much being a “puppet” of the Universe. I often refer back to the 40 ft. cross in Nowhere, Texas where I changed a man’s life and I don’t even know what I said. One minute I was kneeling beside him to speak. The next thing I know I was walking across the parking lot with him chasing after me to thank me.

But that was a different time and I didn’t have to have my senses about me. It was ok if I was disoriented or last a chunk of time. But standing on a hotel deck on nights between work? Well, that could have really changed the course of my life.

Yet, that seems to be the Theme lately, doesn’t it?

By the third conversation I really found myself wondering, “Why me?” What is my place in it? Why should I care? I found myself very driven to speak out. But, speak out against what…to whom?

There are many more stories I could tell. There truly is a lot going on right now, even right here in Geistopia the winds of change are blowing. However, I probably should look at trying to get some sleep. Not to mention the fact that I still have laundry to do and packing to take care of before leaving at 6 AM.

In regards to the job and the changes and everything else, I am just doing my best to keep ego and emotion at bay and to let life unfold at it’s own natural pace on it’s own natural course.

From here in Geistopia, for now and for always, I am your beloved Rev. wishing you…

Love

Light

Peace

and Freakishness.